Losing Weight and My Mind
One woman's journey to lose weight and stay sane. The outlook is not good.
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Breakfast: 6oz 2% Fage plain Greek yogurt, blueberries, raspberries and a sprinkle of Back to Nature granola (vanilla almond agave)
5 points plus (and very filling.)
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This is my lunch for tomorrow. Mixed greens, carrots, egg whites and babybel cheese. There would have been black beans but I forgot to buy those. I will be adding raw almonds when I get to work.
I’m like a fucking grown up or something.
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Ughhhhhh I have to buy a bathing suit. Beach next weekend. Bathing suit shopping is the worst. I can never decide between 1 and 2 piece because I’m most self conscious about my stomach.
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No one goes to the gym on Memorial Day weekend. No one that is, BUT ME. I was one of 3 people at the gym earlier this afternoon. My personal trainer was there and he was really happy I was so motivated to come to the gym on a Saturday of such a picnicy holiday. I swear he has more dedication and excitement for fitness and health than I do for anything in my life. It would be laughable if I didn’t actually fully believe he was being earnest, which is a hard thing for me to believe of anyone.
This weekend is the only weekend until July I have nothing to do, which is ironic since most people plan the bejeezus out of their Memorial Day weekend. So I spent it exactly as I wanted. Sleeping in (9am!), eating breakfast, cleaning, going to the gym, and then completely relaxing while catching up on How I Met Your Mother (FINALLY! Too bad I already knew the ending), painted my nails, and continued my head first dive into Mad Men. I swear I have never wanted an Old Fashioned more than I do right now. I also hope the next date I go on the guy stands up when I leave or arrive at the table. That won’t happen though since my dates usually end with some kind of dick joke and a mental note of deleting that guy’s number. Where was I even going with this? No idea. I’m going to go fix myself and Old Fashioned.
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Also, it’s 3 points plus for 40 Sriracha peas, I would consider it one of my healthier snacks. It’s not fruit, but it’s definitely a decent snack. And also freakin delicious.
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Quick note before I pass out. Eat more than salad before personal training…
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I’m so annoyed at myself. I made a truly gorgeous salad and I didn’t take a picture. Here is a picture with me almost done. It’s mixed greens, black beans, quinoa, carrots, edamame, and goat cheese with a fat free balsamic. It some how lost its gorgeous effect.
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Why is iced coffee twice the cost of hot coffee? You get less coffee and more ice which is water which is free. STOP THE INJUSTICE!
Also, I got hot coffee so I’m not really sure why I’m annoyed by this today…
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It has been a rough couple days, and losing my mind is definitely beating out losing weight since around Thursday.
Anyone reading this who works with me, understand that it’s been a stressful place for the past couple weeks. It all culminated on Friday for me (I’m not even sure if one thing sent me over the edge or if it all just suddenly hit me) and I went home and ate copious amounts of junk while sitting around watching Mad Men all night. I just needed a night to relax. I was all prepared to go to the gym after work but I just couldn’t. Don Draper and chocolate won.
Saturday was a great day involving going to NYC with my cousins and sister, drinking a lot, seeing Memphis (very good!) and eating Italian food all day. I didn’t eat a lot, but what I did eat was not exactly on the health spectrum. I got home at 4am and spent Sunday laying in bed watching Mad Men again (I’m on season 2 now) while finishing the snacks I bought on Friday night (goldfish, S’mores trail mix and cheddar rice cakes. I’m aware that these aren’t exactly junk, but eating half the bag in a sitting is not good either).
Yesterday started with 3 large coffees and ended with me skipping the gym to have dinner with a friend. I didn’t count points but I know I went over them.
I have pretty much felt sluggish since Saturday and I know it has part to do with lack of sleep, and is partly because of the junk I’ve been eating since then. Add on top of that not even pretending to work out.
Tonight I’m definitely going to the gym. I’m still absolutely exhausted but I need to get at least a 45min session in. I know it will make me feel better tomorrow. But getting there tonight, especially because not only am I tired but it’s raining, will be the hardest thing I do all week.
